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Ficlet: Don't Turn Your Back On Me

Title Don’t Turn Your Back On Me
Author Brutti ma buoni
Prompt Black Magic Woman by Santana, who also donated the title from lyrics of same
Rating NC17 I think, given the warnings, though it’s not explicit
Words 375
Warnings There is brief, non-explicit non-con in this. Dark overall, sex, character deaths, plus some swearing to round it off.
Setting AU season 6. This kind of rips up every beloved Spuffy moment in that season and a bit of s7 in a tiny little package of destruction, for which I apologise. (I write fluff too, honestly...)



He knows the moment he sees her, descending the stairs all in perfect, perfectly-wrong white.

She came back wrong. That’s the thing with magic. There’s always consequences.

She doesn’t connect with her friends or her desperate little sister. Doesn’t sing when the demon musical’s in town. She doesn’t have an inside to hide and reveal any more. Not the human kind.

He’s not surprised when she seeks him out, drinking and swearing like his Buffy never would have. Not surprised when she fucks him against a wall, in an alley, on the balcony at the Bronze watching her friends only feet away, eyes dead and far gone from them and from him.

She’s not his Buffy. Not their Buffy. He’s the only one that sees it. They don’t sense that it’s more than shock, depression, distance. It’s about evil, and it’s about power. He thinks maybe something came along for the ride. Some kind of hitchhiker, maybe. A cuckoo demon that pushed out Buffy in the throes of the darkest magicks. Wherever Buffy is now, and he prays it’s far away, she’s not driving this body.

He’s not surprised when she calls the Initiative with a fakeout story about his chip malfunctioning. “He has a soul now,” she says, so pouty innocent. “He’s safe. Totally neutered.”

So believable. So Buffy.

He’s not surprised when the soldier boys do her bidding, and make him back into a monster.

He thinks he sees her aura, that night, though he’s not much truck with new age Wiccan crap on an ordinary day in his death. He sees it crawling with pus-green desire, seeking supremacy, slouching towards Bethlehem. He wants to vomit. She fucks him anyway, silencing his wrenching, retching rejection.

He’s not surprised when her eyes turn to gold even before he bites her; when they kill the Scoobies in the basement at Revello Drive; when she stands at black midnight on Kingman’s Bluff and starts to end the world.

The only thing that surprises Spike - the only thing after that one moment when he saw her descending the stairs in purest white and briefly believed that miracles could happen…

The only thing that surprises him is that in the end he kills her.

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Comments

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quinara
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:38 pm (UTC)
Eep!! Well, that was a bit of a whirlwind! I'm impressed, if not sure what to do with myself. The ending cut right through it, though - you made me very sad. :(
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:49 pm (UTC)
*g* You can tell how peaceful and happy I am right now by how much this isn't. It's a little like a three sentence fic for a prompt "Horror. Season AU."

(There was a last scene, a reverse of Becoming, when she turns out to be inside her brain after all as Spike kills her... But that was a) too much and b) too long for this style of thing. I think this is quite sad enough.)
gryfndor_godess
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:57 pm (UTC)
.There was a last scene, a reverse of Becoming, when she turns out to be inside her brain after all as Spike kills her

Again, I say ha! I don't know why these horrible ideas are amusing me so much, but they are! It's like a terrible yet delicious Greek tragedy. If Buffy were stuck in her head I bet she would be relieved that Spike killed her before the mind-controlling demon destroyed the world. It would be like Wolverine having to kill Jean Grey and getting to see her affection/gratitude in the second before the light leaves her eyes...
gryfndor_godess
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:59 pm (UTC)
And I mean 'horrible' as in what happens to the characters is horrible, not these-are-bad-plot-ideas horrible. Hopefully that was clear.
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 07:11 pm (UTC)
Totally clear!

It's a perfect flip of Becoming, I think, in that it's saving her not betraying her. But it couldn't be done in a clause or two, so it totally didn't fit the rest of this whirlwind.
gryfndor_godess
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:39 pm (UTC)
Ha! This is excellent! It's not even depressing b/c it's so far out, but it's still so believable if you took that little counterfactual that she really did come back wrong.
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:51 pm (UTC)
*g* Thank you! I was waiting for stony silence or rotten tomatoes. Glad to hear it kind of worked in an alternative way.
shapinglight
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:55 pm (UTC)
That was terrific. Very, very dark.
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:58 pm (UTC)
I'm pretty surprised how dark you can go in 350 words. Glad you enjoyed it all the same!
readerjane
Apr. 25th, 2011 06:56 pm (UTC)
Oh, my. Perfectly horrifying, and perfectly inevitable.

Because Buffy is the only thing that would matter to him. Murder wouldn't matter, the world wouldn't matter. Only what she would have wanted.

I think it's very true-to-character, the way you've turned Spike's own words ("If any part of that was Buffy, I wouldn’t let her.") back against him. If he'd seen that no part of Buffy was present, then he would be the one to get rid of what came back.

Did he make sure Dawn escaped the basement? Maybe? Pretty please?
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 07:06 pm (UTC)
That's exactly it. I can see him going further and further down this path, hoping always that there's a fragment of Buffy in there, not able to get rid of her. Till, in the end, she's ending the world. Spike didn't let Dru do that, and I think that Buffy wanting to try it would be the final proof that it cannot be her. So he ends what's left.


It's okay. There's a time fold when he kills her and all the Scoobies turn out to be hiding behind the drier. It's fine.
readerjane
Apr. 25th, 2011 07:14 pm (UTC)
ROFL! Oh, thank you for easing my Spike-n-Dawn heart.
hello_spikey
Apr. 25th, 2011 08:02 pm (UTC)
Well, yes that tore the happy spuffies into bitty bits. DARK!!

*whimper*

(But you know I loved it!)
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 08:20 pm (UTC)
*g* Just sometimes, it's fun to go daaaaark. Thanks!
slaymesoftly
Apr. 25th, 2011 09:27 pm (UTC)
Whoa! Well, there's a Spike and Buffy for the angst crowd. Oh wait. That would include me... Well done!
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 09:44 pm (UTC)
*g* Yeah, this is one of the slightly more extreme family of fics.
rebcake
Apr. 25th, 2011 10:21 pm (UTC)
See, I love Normal Again and this feels like an equally plausible AU. I'm glad we didn't get it on the show, but I'm glad you thought of it! It's got that Cordy/Jasmine echo, especially the aspect wherein the person with the uncontrollable love is the person who has to stop it. *sniffle*

Impressive.
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 10:40 pm (UTC)
I wasn't originally thinking of Jasmine, but that became a huge thing when I was revising this, so it's good to hear the echoes came across. So many times we see sacrifice on the show... It's one of those fics that wrote itself. Buffy really didn't come back wrong - this is what wrong looks like.
smells_corrupt
Apr. 25th, 2011 11:08 pm (UTC)
*shivers* I can see this happening in an AU where she really did come back wrong. Especially when considering how many of his actions are driven by her actions. Without her around to play moral compass it makes sense that he would go along with her destruction. Well done!
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 25th, 2011 11:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! I didn't want this to be totally out there, just a few steps beyond what we saw, and how far that could slide into horrors if you have a different scenario underlying it.
rahirah
Apr. 26th, 2011 04:55 am (UTC)
But of course he would, in the end. He's done it before, and the real Buffy would have remembered that.
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 09:19 am (UTC)
Of course he would. It just isn't something he or she knew he *could*, till it happens.

(This ficlet is weird and scary, and came out of nowhere.)
speakr2customrs
Apr. 26th, 2011 10:03 am (UTC)
She should have known Spike wouldn't let her destroy the world in a World Cup year.

PS: you say the title is taken from 'Black Magic Woman' by Santana. In fact the Santana version was a cover, and a very poor cover at that, of the song written by Peter Green and originally recorded by Peter Green's Fleetwood Mac.

Edited at 2011-04-26 02:15 pm (UTC)
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 07:13 pm (UTC)
Tch. Should have taken my extensive research a step further. Ah well, lyrics007.com may not be my best source.

Good thing she didn't try it during one of the group H matches. It might have seemed like the kindest option to put the world out of its misery.
ever_neutral
Apr. 26th, 2011 10:45 am (UTC)
No rotten tomatoes from me! *throws much fruit*
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 07:14 pm (UTC)
*makes nummy salad*

Thanks!
penny_lane_42
Apr. 26th, 2011 12:29 pm (UTC)
Love it. Gave me shivers!
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 07:15 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much!
zanthinegirl
Apr. 26th, 2011 06:34 pm (UTC)
eep! Very creepy; I like!
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 07:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
louise39
Apr. 26th, 2011 09:41 pm (UTC)
He sees it crawling with pus-green desire, seeking supremacy, slouching towards Bethlehem.

Wow!

Love all the varieties of Spike-Buffy stories!
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 26th, 2011 09:57 pm (UTC)
*g* The flip side of happy fic - really glad you enjoyed this too!
anviloverheaven
Apr. 26th, 2011 11:33 pm (UTC)
Oh horrific!! I love it :)
brutti_ma_buoni
Apr. 27th, 2011 04:32 pm (UTC)
*g* Very glad you enjoyed this!
moscow_watcher
Apr. 27th, 2011 09:18 pm (UTC)
Ouch.

It hurts in all theb right places. Brilliant job.
treadingthedark
Jan. 29th, 2012 05:41 pm (UTC)
Excellently dark. And dark!
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