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see me feel me/ touch me heal me

This double drabble was originally written for the June theme, but then I couldn't post it for reasons. Luckily it fits the July theme even better (although it's no wishverse fic), and I hope it's okay to post now anyway.
Additionally it was inspired by the wonderful banner nmcil12 posted over at Seasonal Spuffy: http://seasonal-spuffy.livejournal.com/562061.html . Go have a look at it if you haven't already.

Many thanks to the lovely red_satin_doll who beta read it, despite still being half sick.

Title: see me feel me/ touch me heal me
Creator: freecat15
Prompt: Wishful Thinking
Setting: BtVS s6, around DMP
Rating: PG15
Length: 200 words (plus titles)

see me feel me

Her eyes are closed.

He presses a kiss right beside one, a silent plea to open them, but she turns her head. Striving away from him, always away, with every part she doesn’t need connected to him.

At the same time she clamps him with her legs, hard, punishing him instantly for this audacity, making unmistakably clear which part of him she’s here for. Not his lips.

Not on her face at least.


He only thinks her name, softly, tenderly. Needing to be closer to her, but not daring to say it.

He wishes she would see him.

touch me heal me

She can almost hear him say her name, the same tenderness in his voice that she feels in his hands on her body. She tries to flee from it, to move away from him.

Can’t though. Can’t afford to leave this behind. This brief connection to the world, this brief semblance of life.

His kiss beside her eye burns into her, and she feels tears welling up behind her lids. Can’t shed them, of course. Can’t open her eyes. He already knows too much.

Because however she tries to hide, he always sees her.

She’s afraid she could see him too.

(Titles by The Who)


( 15 comments — Leave a comment )
Jul. 22nd, 2016 10:42 pm (UTC)
Nicely done. Captures the sadness of the season.
Jul. 23rd, 2016 11:50 am (UTC)
Thank you! I'm such a sucker for s6 struggle-depression-Spuffy...
Jul. 22nd, 2016 10:58 pm (UTC)
These made my heart ache for both of them. I love the double perspective and the titles are perfect. As a total coincidence, I had just been watching some clips from Tommy on YouTube tonight that I hadn't seen in over 30 years! (Last time was in second year of high school...)
Jul. 23rd, 2016 12:01 pm (UTC)
Heart ache - yay! :D

The titles *are* perfect, aren't they? I don't even know why they flew at me out of nowhere. I haven't seen Tommy as long as you and not thought of it or listened to any of it for at least a decade. You mentioning the clips brought me to do the same, and now I want so badly to buy the dvd - it's such a fantastic movie!

Funny that you *just* watched those :D You must have caught some vibes of me over the frontier...
Jul. 23rd, 2016 09:04 pm (UTC)
Funny that you *just* watched those :D You must have caught some vibes of me over the frontier...

It really is a remarkable coincidence! I was on another forum (non-Buffy related) where one poster compared another one to Uncle Ernie, and provided a link to the clip to go with it. So I watched that one, and then a few others (Acid Queen and Pinball Wizard, which was a relief after the first two, which were rather unsettling). I didn't actually watch See Me Feel Me (etc.) -- I guess I need to do that now!
Jul. 23rd, 2016 04:48 am (UTC)
I love the perspective from both sides. This was beautiful! If only they would say what they feel.
Jul. 23rd, 2016 12:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it!

'If only they would say what they feel' - yeah, if only. But Buffy wouldn't listen at that time, and Spike wouldn't know how to help...but that's part of the drama I love, so...
Jul. 23rd, 2016 05:43 am (UTC)
Yay, Spuffy feels! What a good way to start a Saturday. I especially like the first part.
Jul. 23rd, 2016 12:12 pm (UTC)
I think I chose the way better way to start the Saturday - sleeping :D I kind of admire that you're able to form coherent sentences at that time on a weekend day!

The first part was what I wanted to write. The second just followed naturally while slipping into their minds for writing.

Thank you, I'm happy you liked it as a weekend starter :)

Edited at 2016-07-23 12:19 pm (UTC)
Jul. 23rd, 2016 12:20 pm (UTC)
Wellll, it was a bit after half past nine here when I formed those sentences.
Jul. 23rd, 2016 12:59 pm (UTC)
I know :D
Jul. 24th, 2016 07:56 am (UTC)
Wonderful story - heart ache but perfect for these two damaged individuals. Grand Title and love how you explored both characters. I am honored that my graphic inspired you -

Powerful line:

He presses a kiss right beside one, a silent plea to open them, but she turns her head.

and Buffy response - so right for her:

She’s afraid she could see him too.

Jul. 24th, 2016 02:53 pm (UTC)
I'm so glad you liked it! I know it may not have been what you had in mind, but I can't help it, it's s6 that draws me in again and again...
Jul. 26th, 2016 09:40 am (UTC)
Lovely work.
Jul. 26th, 2016 05:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you, I'm glad you like it!
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