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Neverending Narrative (Spike, PG)

Happy new year! I struggle through LJ to post negligible ficlets, and if I get no comments it's clearly just because of the DDoS *g*

Title Neverending Narrative
Words 285
Setting very early season 6
Rating PG but angsty
Prompt Better three hours too soon than a minute too late.


He can laugh about it now. Now that she's back. The extremity his imagination sometimes took him to.

So many nights where he saved her, and it doesn't matter how ridiculous it got, he saved her, and that's what mattered. Before.

There was the version where Spike was hanging around hiding on the tower beforehand, because of course they could have spotted the tower, it wasn't discreet, that monstrous steel structure. And he… he killed someone, who may be Doc or even Glory, it varied. Sometimes he was disguised, something more frightening than a vampire, or less suspicious, sometimes he just smacked them with a tire iron and it worked because this time he was faster and cleverer and sometimes it has to come out right.

There was the one where he killed Dawn and chucked her through the portal instead. Because sometimes, he couldn't stand that she lived when Buffy didn't. Even though it wouldn't have been any better. Just differently agonising.

There was the one where he wrote to the local authorities about unauthorised tower building, and nobody could get up to the crucial site in time to drip anyone's blood. Though he admits to the absurdity of an evil fiend having this fantasy, it could have worked. Though probably not without the deaths of a number of Sunnydale city officials. Spike could have dealt with the guilt. Heh.

Yeah. Daft. He can laugh about it. Could laugh about it sometimes. Would laugh about it still, except that she came back from the dead and she isn't all right at all. And he was still just a little too slow, a little too late, and if he had saved her…

It never ends.

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exposeyou
Jan. 2nd, 2013 07:01 pm (UTC)
I LOVE the bit about calling the authorities.

this is smokin' xx - Buffy and Spike's hands set alight in Chosen.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 2nd, 2013 07:49 pm (UTC)
Sometimes, being evil just isn't enough - you need a bureaucrat to really foul things up.

(I speak as a hardcore bureaucrat, btw.)

Glad you liked it!
catelynstark
Jan. 2nd, 2013 08:24 pm (UTC)
Yeah, it only took me hours to actually het access to lj again but it was worth it. Great story once again!
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:17 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! I'm glad you persevered to comment too.
gillo
Jan. 2nd, 2013 10:05 pm (UTC)
Ouch - that ending is so true.

This is Smokin'... - Buffy holds her hands to the flames in OMWF.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:32 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Not such an easy fix, raising someone from the dead.

(One might think they'd all have realised that, tbh.)
slaymesoftly
Jan. 2nd, 2013 10:11 pm (UTC)
Oh, poor Spike. No doubt exactly what he was feeling much of the time. (And yay for amazing prompts. Must do something with at least one of them!)
Oh, and I didn't mention the "why of course!" ness of siccing the local bureaucracy on Glory and her tower. Why didn't anyone think of that?

Edited at 2013-01-02 10:13 pm (UTC)
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:43 pm (UTC)
Yes, do something with a prompt! I want to play with 'the demons are here' if I can get to it.

Meh. I reckon Sunnydale bureaucrats are veery good at ignoring unauthorised demoning, don't you?
rahirah
Jan. 2nd, 2013 10:20 pm (UTC)
Unfortunately by this point the only person who can save Buffy is Buffy. :/
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:44 pm (UTC)
Mmm, indeed. And therein THE ANGSTING.
readerjane
Jan. 2nd, 2013 11:00 pm (UTC)
Yay, I fought my way through LJ's tedious error messages and was rewarded with a 147 days fic!

And whaaaa -- oh, it's one of those gut-punch stories where everything's going along amusingly, and then you realize there's something different going on here. Because it seems like all those ways Spike saved Buffy in his mind are unimportant now, but what if she's still not saved? Not the way anybody wanted?

Random thought: y'know what these "every night I save you" fics remind me of? Stargate SG-1's episode, The Gamekeeper. Brrrr.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:53 pm (UTC)
Oh goooood. I'm really glad you got that from this ficlet - because of course he meant it when he first saw her, when he first talked to Buffy about 'every night I saved you', even though he sees she's traumatised. But, give it a week, does he still think she's saved at all? Maybe not so much.

In conclusion: ANGST.
spuffy_luvr
Jan. 2nd, 2013 11:30 pm (UTC)
I don't know why I've never thought of it in those terms before, but *of course* Spike would still feel guilty, still realize he was a little too slow and late. So... angsty and funny at the same time. Getting the authorities to stop her. *Snigger*

I haven't been having any troubles with LJ besides it being a touch slow. Guess I'm special. :) Except,crap, now I've probably jinxed it.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:56 pm (UTC)
Thanks! Yeah, I think Spike's happiness to see her again is increasingly mixed. And it was never completely straightforward, even at the start.
shapinglight
Jan. 3rd, 2013 10:11 am (UTC)
It's definitely cos of the LJ outage that f/d is low. So I tell myself.

Anyway, this was lovely. What a great way to start the year on the comm.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 10:59 pm (UTC)
Though I've got loads of lovely comments here, possibly being the only fic posted... Ach well.

Glad you liked it!
kikimay
Jan. 3rd, 2013 01:09 pm (UTC)
Oh poor Spike! He feels so much for her! >O< Love the bit about the unauthorised tower building. Really, Sunnydale police, really!!
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:01 pm (UTC)
Indeed. There's a lot of angst. And if only someone had called building control. Tch. Thanks for commenting!
red_satin_doll
Jan. 3rd, 2013 04:49 pm (UTC)
And we all know how useful the authorities in Sunnydale were: "Dangerous tower? What dangerous tower? Oh, this one? Why, the owners applied for a proper permit; it's all well within code."
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:03 pm (UTC)
Well, exactly. If only there had been some honest bureaucrats the whole dimensional portal thing could have been completely avoided.
lynnalso
Jan. 3rd, 2013 06:51 pm (UTC)
sob. still gets me.

nicely done.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:04 pm (UTC)
Aww, thank you!
hello_spikey
Jan. 3rd, 2013 09:51 pm (UTC)
Yay! Tasty little angstlet.
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:05 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
relurker
Jan. 4th, 2013 06:43 pm (UTC)
Loved this!
It sounds like a perpetuum mobile.

Edited at 2013-01-04 06:45 pm (UTC)
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:06 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much! Never fixed, never fixable. As Barb says, only Buffy can truly save herself, and at this point, maybe she isn't capable of that.
zanthinegirl
Jan. 4th, 2013 08:05 pm (UTC)
OOh, angsty goodness.

There was the one where he killed Dawn and chucked her through the portal instead. Because sometimes, he couldn't stand that she lived when Buffy didn't. Even though it wouldn't have been any better. Just differently agonising.

Good characterization; though it breaks my favorite friendship a bit!
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 4th, 2013 11:09 pm (UTC)
Thanks!

And I promise he's not serious. Just, when you can't bear one pain, you maybe consider swapping it for another.
loopybell
Jan. 5th, 2013 08:11 am (UTC)
I definitely agree with the other reviews-how different thing may have turned out if the gang had written a few strongly worded letters or maybe completed a form or submitted a survey? It's nice to have something to smile at when theres angst, and I loved the angsty bits too..
loopybell
Jan. 6th, 2013 02:45 pm (UTC)
I wrote a review yesterday (it was witty, constructive, dynamic etc) but it didn't post. Rather than write all again, I'll just say I liked it :)
loopybell
Jan. 6th, 2013 02:48 pm (UTC)
Huh? Now I can see it. Weird. Okay so I might have exaggerated re the witty, constructive bit....
brutti_ma_buoni
Jan. 6th, 2013 07:11 pm (UTC)
Heh. Thank you for both, and the clarification...
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